Losing a pet is a horrible loss. These beloved furry creatures come into our lives and become part of us not unlike our family. When they pass, whether it be natural or through tragedy, the loss can be devastating, and more often than not, we are left with so many unanswered questions.
I found myself in this very situation when my dog ( who was originally my ex-boyfriends dog) died of asphyxiation during a horrible heat wave when he left him alone in a hot apartment with no air conditioner in 100 degree heat.
I don’t think devastated quite describes the feeling I had when I got the phone call from my ex screaming that Bink was dead. My brother and I went to meet him to help him take care of the body. We had been broken up for quite some time, however we all put our differences aside in order to make sure that this little being who had touched all of our lives, was properly taken care of. It was one of the more emotionally heartbreaking experiences of my life.
All the thoughts that went through my head were the same as when my grandmother died; “Did he suffer?” “Was he in pain?” “He must have been so scared.” All I could do was cry whenever I thought about his final moments here on earth, and the fact that I could do nothing to save him was eating me alive.
A good friend of mine suggested we go see a pet psychic.
“This woman is amazing. She can talk to all the animals that have crossed over.”
Having nothing to lose, we went.
As I sat before Connie I could not contain my emotion.
“Don’t worry sweetie, you will feel much better when we are done here.”
“Okay” she said. “You have quite a number of pets coming through. There is a rabbit with one ear that is really excited to see you. Boy is she cute.”
I almost choked. My bunny Hopper was a rescue from a testing lab many moons ago. Because of all the chemicals tested on her mother, she was born with one half of one ear, a very clear trait that Connie had picked up on right away. In that very moment, I knew this woman was the real deal.
“My baby!” I said, with tears in my eyes. “She’s okay.”
“Oh yes. But she says you are not here for her, you are here for him, and she is pointing to this really adorable English Bulldog.” “She says he just got there.” “Bank, Brink, ”
“Bink.” I said
“He wants you to know he is very happy, and that he didn’t suffer. He knows you are worried about that. He is also showing me that the angels came for him and he just found himself here in this field, he didn’t feel any pain, it was just like one minute he was in the house, the next in a field. He says he can breathe really well, which he’s excited about. Also he said that they have given him a ton of real peanut butter ice cream which is a lot better than the stuff he had on earth.
I couldn’t believe it. Bink loved peanut butter and he LOVED ice cream so I bought him these doggie ice creams that were peanut butter flavored. I always had a feeling he didn’t really like them as much as the real thing.
“Wow. Now I know you are talking to him.”
“He said that will make you happy.” She said thoughtfully.
“This is cute. He is showing me that he came to visit you the other night. He said that you were sleeping, but not in your room, in another room. He was jumping up onto the bed to try and comfort you. He said you felt him.”
“Whoa. I was sleeping in my best friends room because I couldn’t stop crying. In the middle of the night we both felt what seemed like two paws continuously pressing down on different sides of the bed. Steph said she thought it might be Bink trying to find me.”
“Yeah, he isn’t used to his spirit form yet so he was having a hard time getting up on the bed.”
“He always had a hard time getting up on the bed because he was so overweight.” I said
Connie laughed in a very sweet way that gave me permission to laugh too.
“well my dear, we have come to the end of this reading. I hope you enjoyed your time with Bink.”
“Thanks so much Connie. I feel like I’m finally able to say goodbye.”
“No, no sweetheart. It’s never goodbye. He’s waiting by the rainbow bridge. That is where they all are. When you cross over, he will come to meet you with your relatives. Then you all will cross over the bridge to the other side. Until that time, all our beloved pets play in this beautiful place between where they are loved and cared for, and act as guides for their human counterparts.”
I didn’t speak but let the tears flow down my face.
“We are all on a spiritual journey sweetie, even our pets. It is all beautifully designed by the divine in a way we can never really understand until we are reunited once more with our true form. So remember, when your best furry friend is called home, don’t say goodbye. Say see you soon.”