Pain. Painful emotions bleed anxiety into a healthy heart and mind.
The toxic energy slowly poisons the body, taking over the soul and eventually destroying the life force energy.
Overcoming this dragon will take great mental clarity and focus. The journey into the dark night of the soul is not for the faint of heart.
And while most of us have to go through this painful life transition, it is how we think about our journey that determines how we will come out on the other side.
Our thoughts are the gatekeepers to our happiness.
All the great masters have repeatedly reminded us to, “guard our thoughts.”
And yet, we allow our minds to run free with fear thoughts that take up precious time and space in our psyche.
We mask our pain with external trappings of the ego in hopes that we can overcome the deep routed sadness we feel within.
And while many of us run like hell from that which we fear, we tend to find that no matter what we do, we can’t seem to get away from it.
That is because the only way over it is through it. You might hideout during one storm but rest assured another one will be right behind it.
Learning to master your thoughts and how you think about your life is what will ultimately set you upon the path of true happiness.
In my own life, I found myself running from everything I feared until my world became a tomb. With that my joy was gone and I was falling farther into the depths of despair.
All my life I felt out of control starting from childhood when my parents dragged us through a violent divorce. There was nothing I could do to escape the pain and so I internalized everything, fearing that crying would somehow make me weak.
My thinking that life was a safe place, a place of happiness and love had been replaced with a new pattern of thinking; life was a horrible place, filled with tragedy, violence, and loss. These new pathways were forming every day and would only get stronger as the traumas in my life continued to feed them.
By the grace of God, I met a guru who changed my life. He was a short, Indian Pundit who had come to the US to participate in a Homa Ceremony my father was throwing at his business.
After the ceremony, during lunch, we struck up a conversation. I told him about my struggles and the difficulties that were seemingly never-ending especially where anxiety and panic were concerned.
“You must guard your thoughts. They are the guardians of the gates of heaven and hell.”
I stared at him silently taking in what he was telling me.
“Protective positivity and devotion open the door to heaven. You must engage every day with gratitude for being alive, not with disappointment at not having what you think you deserve or desire. This will change everything.”
“It can be so hard to do when your entire life you have been programmed to think that everything should fall apart.”
He smiled sweetly and took a bite of his samosa, “Then you must change the programming.”
At that moment it clicked. I had been searching for answers outside myself for so long, I had never realized that the answer was within. I finally realized that while there may be storms along my path that were out of my control, what was in my control was how I reacted to it.
While we cannot change or alter traumatic events that have happened in our lives, we can certainly change our perspective on them. After all, our suffering depends not on what happens to us but what we think about it.